Saturday, June 13, 2009


I'm so excited today I have to see if I have pictures to post I'm not sure but I do have the best news. WE HAVE BEEN FREED OF MUCH CLUTTER!!!!!!!! don't you wish you where the one typing that. I've been Married to the best man ever for almost 11 years and never once have we had a garage sale. I was never ambitious enough to get it all together and have one, not to mention our first house was in the country I was afraid no one would come and our second house was in an area that I was ashamed to have one ( I know tisk,tisk,tisk,). I was afraid the people around us wouldn't like us.....(no need to comment on this I know the error in my thinking.) So since we have just moved into the new house one night when I opened my door to a flyer closed in the storm door I said honey we are going to do this and immediately called the neighborhood organizer to say we are in.
At this point my hubby groans in anticipation of 2 long week, that would end with little change.
How I love it when he is pleasantly surprised, because we have started with a full house over flowing garage and went to house needing some organization and decluttering (which I have 3 books on in my book shelve, so no I don't need a book to read about that process, as my hubby would say we need to stop reading about what we need to do and just start doing it.) to a house that's unpack mostly with all my hubbies tools in the new shed and lots of room in the garage. We haven't park our cars in the garage, but if it were snowing we could get one in so we are well on our way to our goal of getting both cars in by winter. I have to add the beautiful shed Mark and I built together, I worked hard on it also, with help from a neighbor and another friend.

Every day we are getting closer to freedom, free from clutter, free from things (we don't use or need) free from stress mess creates stress, free to spend more time as a family and less time cleaning, which will free us up to get that family picture done that we have been wanting and been asked about several times and haven't done it. No offense to the asker, I'm honored that someone out there love us all enough to want a mug of us four.

Don't mean to get on a soap box or preachy, but I was just thinking of "Chains" that Mandisa sings. Jesus loves us all enough that he wants to see us, and not as just a perfectly cute little family which is totally what we are:-) but really see us as the free from the world children we are to him we are like the Israelites he free from there captors, but wondered around for years not knowing how to be free. God send Jesus to free us once again and sometimes we wonder around trying to figure out how to be free, hey just give it up man, just give it all away.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Girls Night at the Bandixen's

The boys wanted to go and see Star Trek the movie that just came out at the Drive Inn. I didn't want to go and Elexis would have gone because she wants to be with Jacob, so I decided to have a girls night. She has been wanting to try the new little girl press on nail and I have been saying no for a while, well tonight we went shopping and got some press on nails for her they come off with warm water, and a movie to watch, I let her pick out a new 2 piece bathing suit with the long top that covers most of her stomach for modesty. She got to choice what she wanted for dinner, an a drink. We had a great time. It was so much fun and then she fell asleep around 9:30-10:00. It was great here is some pictures of her nail.

I took them as she was asleep, you never know how long they will last. She did say after having them on for about half an hour, I feel sad for people with long nails it hard to grab anything, I can't do anything then she spilt her drink all over the living room table trying to pick it up. Maybe the fake nails wont be so appealing after this experience.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Big Weekend

I'm off work this weekend which is great I get to spend time with my family. My wonderful hubby has a fun work weekend planned for us, which is O.K. He's going to work on building his shed this weekend. So we will all be helping out with that as much as we can, I'm not much help other then muscle, I'm not a builder but I am good at helping out with stuff. I'll make sure to take picture so we can show off the fruits of our labors this weekend.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Zoo Fun

Today was a Pretty o.k day at the Zoo, where I work not many people due to other area activitys, but the weather was great and the animals were out enjoying it. The Penguins love this cool but warm weather, and y can tell because they come out and go swimming and just hang out where people have enjoy them so for a saturday away from my family at work it was very enjoyable to see the Penguins and other animals out. I'm not a huge animal lover, but I'm findng a new found joy just from being around the Zoo animals and Poeple. I think weather wise tomorrow is suppose to be like today, I may take the kids to the Zoo and we can see it the animals are out they would love it. I post pictures if I get any that are good.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009


As a mother I've always found that as the childre grew my excitement grew with them, I couldn't wait for my babies to walk and then talk, make sentences, ask questions, learn there ABC's, tie there shoes, read, I remember my son sat down one day intending to just look at a Dr. Seuss Book, and all of a sudden I heard him exclaim, I can read this!!!!!!!, Mom I can read this and then he continued by reading the book to me. I was so proud of him wow!!! I have to say my husband was the opposite he would have loved for the children to stay at that total dependent, cuddling, I need you daddy stage. He would feed them, and cuddle with them, get up with them in the middle of the night. Just love on them until they fell a sleep. When our son was born he had a hard time sleeping at night still does Nine years later, but my husband would sing to him, it got to the point that he could only go to sleep if dad was singing to him, so we made a recording of my dear husband singing so that we could get him to sleep. As he grew and got older we didn't need the CD anymore, but my husband still sings to both of the children Jacob who is 9 and Elexis who is 6, there is just more of a variety of songs they sing, even when they are sleeping at a friends house they call and want dad to sing to them. I have to say Jacob is going into Middle School 4th grade and I'm having a hard time with it, I would love for him to stay where he is right now forever. I see things coming that I'm not ready for, Attitude, peer pressure, boundary pushing going on everywhere. It scares me a little I just pray and pray that God will open our eyes wide and give us the insight we need to have a healthy communication with him as life continues on and gets harder and harder for him and us. He is a great kid and listens well, he tells us stuff even when he knows he may get into trouble, I just pray that he will be able to continue to stand up for what he believe in right.

Friday, April 24, 2009

House Pictures

The first Picture is my daughter Elexis dancing around in the office/ family room
This is the eat in part of the Kitchen the tile floor is wonderful so far anyway.
We never thought we would buy a house with a fire place, we just aren't fireplace people but I love the fireplace the first time we set it going it was so nice and peaceful.
This is the kitchen there is so much pantry shape.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Today I have so much to be thankful for I'm just not even sure which on to write about. I will Highlight several but talk about on in particular. We had a great day for our move weather wise I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day, the muscle we had was awesome, the creativity used to fit everything into our now much smaller house and garage was a God send. We couldn't have picked a better group of friends if we tried not to mention all the great help I've had unpacking has been great.
But the one thing that really hit me like a lead balloon this morning as I was at the bus stop with my kids waiting for the bus to come and pick them up was one of the children on there bus who is at there bus stop is so devoted to God it just oozes out of his pores. When we first met him he let us know what church he went to right away, he talks about God and his church just about every morning. The thing that but a smile on my face this morning was this kid who is in the 4th grade was all worked up about part of President Obama's speech he heard on the news last night. I love to see people especially young people get excited about politics, because this is the only country we have and if we can't make a stand for what we believe in who knows what is going to happen in the future. Today I learned of One individual from the next generation will be fighting for the rights of other Christians. I walked home after taking the kids to the stop with a smile on my face and a little chuckle in my heart. What a great start to a great day.

Monday, April 6, 2009


Wow, What a weekend, we are moved. I'm amazed excited and overwhelmed and a little stressed and emotional. Which I think is normal when you move yourself and don't use a moving company, but it's done. We are going go to bed early for about 2 weeks and unpack at a relaxed pace for a while until we aren't exhausted anymore. Our goal is to park the cars in the garage next winter, for those of you who have seen our garage since we moved you know what a big job that is. Wish us luck, and lift up a short prayer for us if you think about it.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Thankful Thursday

I'm thankful for my friends, and family but this blog is going to be about my friends. We are moving if you haven't noticed the count down on my blog, but we have had so many wonderful people, friends, offer to help us move. I was a little concerned that we would have enough help because it's a big job if it were only myself and my husband. We don't have any blood relatives closer then 3 hrs. away, but the family we've meet in our church and community has embraced us with a love we could never have imagined. At last count we have 15 people including ourselves helping us move, one great lady making lunch for everyone and bringing it to us and another friend of mine who offered to keep our kids for the day or make us a meal. I'm just floored by Gods love and provisions, I shouldn't be I know, I should have known all along that God had it all planned out. He always does, and it couldn't have been at a better time. When God told us it was time to sell the house, I thought O.K. but you do realize that I'm going through all this medical stuff, with the vision problems and constant doctor appointments, I'm going to be overwhelmed (that is the human part of me)I had hoped the house wouldn't sell for a while so I could get the medical stuff under control then work on the house. Notice I said I could get it under control. God told me in no uncertain terms that he was going to be in control of the house and the medical stuff and that there wasn't a thing I could do about it. I'm thankful that he has been there when I needed him most and put people in my path when I needed them most. Although I'm still suffering with headaches, vision problems and all that, I couldn't have accomplished everything I've accomplished without God and the friends he has brought into my life.


we have 3 days until the move, wow I can't hardly believe it. It's amazing. I have pictures to post but I'm not sure how to get them off my camera phone. I'm gong to figure it out tomorrow or probably ask my hubby how to do it because he is brillant, and knows everything.. Well 3 and Counting.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009


Sunday Monday and Tuesday, I'm a little overwhelmed with packing and all I have left to do. I have to tell you my daughter is so excited she is 6 years old, and when she woke up this morning she said to me I'm so excited we only have 5 days, then tomorrow it's 4, then 3, then 2 then 1 day and we move, I can't wait. Her saying it of course is much better then me saying it. She is so into change it's amazing, she doesn't shy away from change at all, where as my son who is 9, is embracing the move well but not with the enthusiasm his sister is. He understands that we are being obedient to God and that he will provide for us. Which he has and we are so blessed and thankful. All thought last week I pick the kids up from School and we drove over to the new house and checked out the neighbor hood and saw the bus they would be riding, as well as were it will pick up and drop them off and they got to see some other kids that were around there ages who lived close by. Anyway we are at 4 and counting.

Saturday, March 28, 2009


I'm behind on my count down, I missed Thursday,and wasn't up and about on Friday. Today I was busy packing with my hubby, so here we are at 7. Wow. Is it time to do the surface sweep yet, no not yet but soon. If anyone out there doesn't know what the surface sweep is ask and I'll fill you in.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Thankful Thursday

Right now I'm stressed and worried (or trying not to worry)Which is making it hard for me to be thankful in a happy loving way. There is so much to be thankful for, but for me that emotion isn't there right now.

I'm thankful that I can be thankful for the many blessings in my life even when I don't feel it overwhelmingly at that exact moment. Sometimes in life other emotions are so overpowering that we don't always feel the good ones. I've learned a while back when I went through the Post Partum Depression with my kids that feelings can't be trusted unless they are backed by our faith and fact. So I know that even though I'm not feeling thankfulness right now because of other things that are weighing me down, my faith and the facts tell me without an ounce of doubt that I'm thankful deep down where it really matters.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009


Wow 10 days until we move. Will we have it all done. I thinks so. We are so excited to start this new adventure in our life. It's going to be a learning curve for us and a stretch space wise, but good. We are use to haveing a place for just about everything and plenty of room for more. At the new house we will have to really search our hearts and needs hard and deep to determine what we can do without, right down to how many sheet set we have storage room for per bed. I'm going to have to dig deep looking for that organized person I know I can be but haven't embrassed. I'm ready for the challenge, I hope my family is also. If not they will have to be soon.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009


Counting down.
I can't figure out how to make the numbers look better so it is what it is.

Monday, March 23, 2009


I wrote this post about a year ago, I'm not sure why I didn't post it, but today as I noticed it in my drafts I thought I should post it even thought it's almost a year old I hope you enjoy it.

I was reminded just now or even a little yesterday, that it's so easy to totally miss the blessing that God has given us day in and day out. I started my blog with the what a Gift Name for a specific reason to remind myself of the many blessings that God has given me and continues to give me. I think I have lost sight of acknowledging Gods gifts in my life especially in my blog. It's funny today as my children were looking for Easter eggs I had to keep telling my 8 year old to look high and leave the low ones for my 5 year old, but he continued to gravitate to the low eggs, so I kept on reminding him. I was thinking that is how we sometimes are as Christians but in reverse we are always looking for the high/big/out of this world miracle from God and we forget to look low and see the everyday miracles he has given us. It's so easy to think that we succeeded on our own abilities, or that we didn't spend enough time letting God help us so we must have done it ourselves. The reality of the situation is that even the littlest things that we think we did ourselves were done by God we just don't take the time to acknowledge it and thank him for it. I believe that nothing happens in this world that God hasn't placed into motion so for me to say I did this or that is essentially not giving credit where credit is due. I want to say to God at this time, Thank you for everything, one thing in particular I've lost sight of for so long and just recently have with your leading and provisions saw again is the gift of art that you've given me and helped me to see again. It's been so long that I didn't know if I could even draw or paint again, I asked for your help and guiding and you allowed me to see it again. I rediscovered what was always there. Thanks,


Counting down

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Counting Down

This is going to be a short post because I promised my wonderful hubby I would fall asleep as we watch a movie together tonight, HA HA!!!!!! If you know me you know that is so true it's not even funny I think as soon as I sit after a long week, day, life, it's so quick I just can't help myself and I fall a sleep. There are time when I hear him say Melissa did you see that, well know not with my eye lids over my eye!!! (she says dripping in SARCASM )
Anyway I thought I would find another way to stress myself out since I have very little stress right now ( another joke) by setting up a count down until the BIG MOVE!!!!


Tomorrow my number will be bigger and better.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Spring Break

I'm not sure about most of the country, but in our house Spring Break consisted of fevers, sleeping, television, headaches, and stomach aches. Despite all that we were able to have one great day of no illnesses and leave the house. The kids decided they wanted to go to the Zoo. Elexis told me yesterday that her favorite animal was an elephant because there first 3 letters are the same, and wonted to know when the Henson Robinson Zoo would get an Elephant. I told her I didn't think they would because it was to big but she could as Jackie when we went next. So today she asked her and was very shy which isn't like her, but found out that there just wasn't room for an elephant to live at the Zoo, but we had a good time anyway. I've posted some picture of our fun day. I'm surprised how much the kids really just love the animals and visiting the Zoo.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009


I'm to wordy for wordless Wednesday but I wanted to post pictures of my wonderful laundry room that I'm leaving. My mom and I spend 3days painting the laundry room in stages and putting the clouds on the walls. Two of the Clouds I put my wonderful kid's names in and then I hung up the special clothing I had saved over the year. Like there first swim suits and clothes we brought them home from the hospital in Spider man costume and princess gown, as well as the first pair of big kid underwear. Now we are moving which we are very excited about, we are following Gods lead and can't wait. I have to say I'm going to miss walking into my laundry room and remembering the wonderful help my mom was to me in decorating it, and how excited I was to put my kids names on the wall. It's always hard to leave memory behind, but we know there is a lot more to be made at the new house.

Wordless Wednesday

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Bucket Post

I just read a great Post about buckets fillers and bucket dippers at this website I don't' know how to link so I just copied and pasted the address above. I was so encouraged when I read this. One thing I thought about was how in my everyday life I tend to fill buckets on a daily bases outside of my own home. You know friends, extended family, co-workers, acquaintances, but are we filling bucket of the people who live in our own house. This morning my precious daughter who hates to get up in the morning for school yells every time you turn the light on. Can't I go to school later why does it have to start so early, the sun isn't up yet you get the idea right. Well this morning we let her sleep an extra 10 minutes which is a lot for a 6 year old who doesn't really understand time yet. Like how long is 5 mins really, we had three minutes until she had to head out to catch the bus, and she was fiddling with her socks and shoes because they didn't feel right, I could have filled her bucket by going and fixing her socks for her and helping her along, but I didn't I was feeling the pressure of those extra 10 minutes of sleep and told her to just get her shoes on and get moving because the bus was going to be here soon. She busted out into tears, I felt terrible because I could have done more to be more ready myself which in turn would help her to be more ready. To make a long story come to an end I guess what I'm saying is don't neglect filling the buckets of the people closest to you, they will love you forever no matter what because your mom,dad, aunt,or even the grandparents, but don't we all want more then that, we want to be loved because we loved, especially those closest to us.

Thankful Thursday

Today I'm going to post a very simple Thankful Thursday, It's funny how sometimes we try to be so deep and encouraging that we make somethings way harder then they need to be. So today I'm going to be very simple and hopefully to the point. I have a friend who God has made our paths cross a lot in the last 3 years but we just really never connected, like really connected. Resently we have really started to connect more and I being my help everyone else self thought that maybe God wanted me to do something for her, so I started contacting her more started taking her meal once in a while mostly because I like to cook for other and take people food that I think if tasty, but also becasue she was weak and not feeling well. Little did I know that she would help me out more then I could have ever helped her out. I struggle with Anxiety and depression mostly with health issues concerning myself and my family, and she has been a person that has been able to help me to be at peace and calm through out the whole process of the health issues I've been going through. So today I'm thankful for my friend who has blessed me through Gods love when I thought I was suppose to bless her.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Thankfull Thursday

There is a two new host for Thankful Thursday, this month it hosted at Spiritually Unequal Marriage her web address follows I wasn't sure what to be thankful for today our blessing have somewhat ran together for the last couple of weeks and I didn't want to sound redundant, so I thought I would check the host blog out to get a little inspiration.

I'm thankful that the blog sphere is full of people who live there live in a real way which helps to inspire those of us who need a little encouragement and inspiration.
I'm thankful for Lynn's mom for calling her this morning with this verse Proverbs 9:10a "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom" because it inspired me to think about fear in relationship to God. We all have fears of some kind or another, but this is a different kind of fear. I'm thankful that God is patient, he waits for us to understand what it means to respect him and humble ourselves enough to learn what he has to teach us and that is what that verse means to me.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Bitter Sweet

It's something when your so blessed you can't get off your knees, but to also be so heart broken you can't get off you knees either. I've been blessed in so many ways, it's like God has decided to pour out a life time of love on me in just one simple moment, WOW!!!! Sometimes there is that one thing, that you want more then anything and the only way he can bless you is to be there to hold your hand and love on you as your going through it because for some reason that you don't know you have to go through it. My friend and I have talked about the struggles of live and she is awesome, she's like bring it on God I want to be refined in your fire. I'm like I've been there I just want to sit out this time and maybe the next too. Maybe that makes me a wimp and maybe that shows a lack of faith I don't know for sure the only thing I know for sure is God doesn't let me sit out because he knows what is best for me, he knows I need refined in the fire, to be stronger and more in love with him. Our Pastor this last week did a great sermon that you could listen to at the following website it you wonted to: In short about waisted time. He talked about how many Saturdays he had until his 16 year old left home and how many had passed by already. It made me think about my own life with my children and my own passions and desires. God has given all of us gifts, and talents to use for his kingdom, and I've spent a lot of Saturdays putting off the work that God has put in my heart. I've done a lot of what God has asked me and I've spent a lot of time with my wonderful family which I would never change. As I'm going through this struggle with my eyes and my vision getting worse and worse, I've begun to think about all the times God has given me images in my heart and mind and said paint this for me, make this for me and I tucked it away in my mind or my sketch book and said some day when life is not so crazy I'll do it. I believe God is going to take care of this problem and not let me go blind, but in the mean time I'm going to do my very best to fulfill my God given purpose as I see it and follow through on the promises I've made.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009


It's so amazing when life is altered unexpectedly, no! no! no! not unexpectedly but more like when you expect it but maybe not so quickly. We have a great God it just floors me to think how amazing God has worked in my life, my families life and even my friends lives. God gave me the best husband in the world, seriously the best when we meet it was unreal only God could have done that (I'll blog our story someday), Then we had two great children, my husband has had 2 great Jobs the whole time we have been married, not to mention a huge move with movers that we didn't have to pay for, and that is only the highlights.

Today the thing I'm so thankful for that I could burst is that we sold our house and in the process of buying a new one. God has been telling us for almost exactly 1 year that he wants us to sell the house, sometimes we are like children we need to know somethings in advance and be reminded enough in order to let change sink in and be comfortable with it. So around the end of January we talked with a Realtor and decided that we need one in order to get our self's moving and set the Date to put the sign out and the MLS to have our house on the Internet. Feb 16th was the day, we had two people look at the house that very same day and one of them offered us full asking price and we pay closing cost that evening. Everything was set with signatures by the 18th. When God says he is going to sell the house he is going to sell the house. Now we have to find a good house in our price range which is very low for our area, God had it all picked out for us the 2nd house we looked at was the one and now we are buying a house. In 10 days God sold our house and gave us a new one. How amazing is that especially in this day and age. The bible says he has a plan for us he knows where we will be and what we will be doing, it's true he does and I'm so thankful for a God that cares enough to know what I don't.

So Today I'm Thankful to be starting a new chapter in my life that I can see Gods hand all over.

Friday, January 16, 2009

I'm having a good day today which is not been the norm here lately. I was surfing for something new and exciting to read today and stumbled across and great post from Angela at this website
It's funny how dreams and desires can lead us to success, to God, to confusion, I don't think its bad to have dreams and desires, just make sure they are yours and Gods. We get ourselves into so much trouble trying to be something we aren't whether it's for ourselves like we think we would be a better person if only, or if it's for someone else. I have to say I've had a lot of dreams and desires, but the ones that mean the most have come true the others are still on the list waiting to be fulfilled or discarded. It's hard to discard of those dreams that we thought where the ones that were going to make us successful, we have to ask ourselves whose eyes are we trying to be successful? I was going to do great things like be an artist who created book covers for a publishing company, they would call me when they needed something which would be all the time, right. God had bigger and better plans for me I married the man of my dreams and had two great children who I get to spend lots of time with. I'm home when they need me and get to do my art on the side which I don't do much of, (I'm working on that). I don't think I would be as happy as I am right now if my plans had been fulfilled, I'm so glad that God knows best and leads us in the direction that he knows will make us happy.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Measuring Love

I was just writing my Husband an e-mail at work. I didn't want to interrupt him but I was thinking of him and wonted him to know how much I love him. When I think of love I often think wow that is hard to describe different degrees of love, I tell my friend love ya, which to me is a sisterly love, I tell my sister who I don't get to see very much, I love you because I want here to know that I love her so much my heart aches when I think of her and think of how much I miss her. When I tell my children I love them it's a love that only a mother can know and understand it's a love that has no words or explanation. My compassionate and loving daughter came to me one day and said "Mom don't tell anyone (so forgive me for telling) but I love my brother so much I just can't stand it". I had to chuckle since she was born I often prayed and thought OH God Please let them love each other and be friends, the older they've gotten and the more they fight and pick at each other, the more I find myself praying that they would grow up to be sister and brother who really love each other. I think God has answered my prays. Back to my husband I just had to tell him in the e-mail I Love you so much I just can't stand it.... is there really any other way to describe the love we have for our spouses or even the love we have for God. God I love you so much I just can't stand it and more then that.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Thankful Thursday

I'm thankful to be blogging again,
I'm thankful for my family,
I'm thankful for a God who gives us peace. The thing about Gods peace is that it is a free gift he offers us all the time, it's the times that we accept it that we feel it the most and are thankful for it.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Wii Fit contest

I'm so excited 5minutes for Mom is sponsoring a contest where you could win a Wii Fit among other things. I'm mostly interested in the Wii Fit so I can't remember what else was being given away. It's very simple to enter there is a link to there page on my sidebar if your interested. One of the things you have to do to enter is sign up on and they have all the information about that. Basically what you do is take a picture of yourself and enter some info about yourself and tell them how much weight you would like to lose up to 50lbs. At that point with computer graphic help they create a virtual picture of you x amount of lbs. lighter. The coolest part is you get to decide after you've seen the picture if you will allow them to show it or not. If your interested in a Wii Fit or finding out what the other prizes are go to 5 Minutes for Mom.

Room Round up- I Love It

I'm so excited, it's been a great January so far. One of my favorite blogs is, She does this wonderful Monthly round up each month you organize different things to help de-clutter or just make life a little easier. This year she is doing smaller projects each month instead of entire rooms like last year. January is filing Cabinets. I'm a little uncertain about what I'm going to do but when I figure it out I'll post pictures. I'm afraid that in order to organize my filing cabinet I may have to enlist my dear hubby and tackle the entire office.
Stay Tuned!!!

Home Organization

Saturday, January 3, 2009


This is a post that was in my archives since last spring I thought it was a well written post and decided to share it with whoever may read it even if I'm the only one reading it.
Isn't it funny that we all in one way or another seek out approval from others. I know there are some of us out there who would say I don't care what others think ( I tend to be one of them) but in all reality can we say that 100%, I can't. It's funny to me how this needing approval thing starts so early in age. My son who is sporting his fohawk (his words) (---A Fohawk is a Mohawk were the sides are a little longer then peers think a Mohawk should be.---) has come to me in the mornings and said very sadly I think I will leave it down today. No one likes it. I have to say do you like it -well yes he will reply--I say that is all that matters. He will say excited but nervous OK I want it pointed. I wonder out loud how is it that we can't bring ourselves to be excited for others simple because they are excited about something. Especially about things that don't really matter, like hair, most cloth, there are so many things that are very trivial in the grand scheme of things, why is it we can't just say to a 7yr old that hair cut is so cool. You look great. Even when we don't like the mohawk or fohawk? Is it better for us to build up a child's self esteem so they can make good choices when it really matters. Today he went to school with it down, It was funny he said to me I just want to be myself.

I was just looking at this post that I wrote last spring wondering why I didn't post it I just saved it as a draft in my archive. It's a insightful post which should provoke some thoughts I would think but why didn't I post it. Could it be that I was wrestling with the very thing I was writing about the approval and acceptance of others.


Today is January 3, 2009 it's funny I sat down at my computer and thought what am I going to do on the computer who's blog will I look at and here I am at my own blog that I haven't posted anything for 8 months. I decided 8 months ago to take a 40 day siesta from blogging I was become addicted to writing and reading a lot of others I was finding my mornings disappear as I focus on the computer screen. I was reading my last blog and thought wow why did I stop. My original goal for blogging was to have a place where my family and my husbands family could go to catch up on what is going on with us as well as to be able to write down all the uncontrollable thoughts that run through my head on a nonstop basis it seems sometimes. One of many goals I have for this year is to start blogging again, and not for anyone in particular but just for me I enjoy it very much. I hope every ones Christmas was great and the New Year as well.
It's kinda funny as I was previewing my blog post I notice that I titles this new post, this new beginning the same as my very first post ever wrote( if I'm remembering correctly) how ironic is that.